Saturday, November 26, 2011

The Journey Back To Me

The Journey Back To Me

I pity those who have never experienced the reality of epic failure in life.
That season of temporary utter devastation...that breath-taking moment of loss...that mind-altering state of rejection...

That moment when brain and heart agree for once...the mistake is lived out in breathing color... The guilt you bear for not feeling guilty...The shame you wear to cover the nakedness of honest moments of desperation...

All lead to the life-changing revelation that: I am human.
An authentic package of frailty and strength...weakness and confidence...flaws and purity...
All wrapped in one fragile, yet unbreakable package of humanity.

I am perfectly imperfect.
And today....for once....I find no shame in that.

This day is the first step of a journey of a million miles....
It is THE JOURNEY BACK TO ME.

3 comments:

  1. Woman of God: found your blog by Providential Accident; while listening to your hymn to the Lord 10, 000/1 Million. I read this and my mouth and my heart flung wide open. I am right now at this place and thought I was utterly alone; and stuck with an assignment to preach to those when I am completely drained. I am on E, and unabashedly in need of YAHWEH, alone! Thank you for your honesty, as I join you on your journey. Godspeed. Blessings...

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  2. I love these words. I love the honesty and raw transparency they share and the idea of Journeying Back to Me.

    I am on the same journey as well. Although, I feel it's not a journey back. It's more of a discovery of someone that I've always been, but have never met. It's a beautiful, wild, scary and liberating adventure.

    Thank you for sharing your heart. I hope to hear more from you.

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  3. I personally don't want to "journey back to me," but rather to journey to Christ Jesus the Almighty! Had He not put Himself before me for me to have found Him when I did there would have been no me from years ago to journey, for my carnality would have been enthroned on my heart where Jesus the Eternal King belongs & is the Best to occupy the space & my carnality while in sway would have been taken advantage of by the one who seeks to be the Brutus, the Amnon to whosoever will let him be so, namely Satan, & I would have been misled & destroyed!
    So me? "Me" remembers that Paul said to the Galatians, "If I build again the things that once I had destroyed, I make myself a transgressor."
    "Me" understands for sure that "me" is human & thus can fail & unfortunately sometimes do, but "me" refuses to use "me"'s humanity as an excuse for "me" to be stagnant or journey backward (the Bible calls that "backsliding") but rather to "press toward the high calling," submitting "me" to the ultimately successful "Son of man" (a Hebraic idiom which means "human being," so, contextually, "the Human Being," namely Jesus the Christ who conquered sin & death for "me" & all humanity, but particularly those who personalize His offered salvation by personally obeying His NT commands & developing a relationship with Him).
    Sis. Lopez (I'm going to at least assume that you are as of today on thr basis of that you could be as of today back from the quest for yourself, which apparently in recent years you found, unfortunately), I love the song "Still I Will Trust You" & I noticed a video of you singing it, but then I noticed other videos of you in recent times & your comestized presence tells me that inwardly you have lost touch with the Christian attire & grooming principles noted in 1 Peter 3:1-6 & 1Timothy 2:9-10, et al, which saddens my heart & makes me to know, you did find yourself rather than a furtherance in Christ.
    In love & yet speaking the truth, I a brother in Christ since 198i invite you to please flee from you to Him, if you haven't already done so!
    May the Lord's Written Word & His Spoken Word be your guide back!Amen.

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