Saturday, November 26, 2011

The Journey Back To Me

The Journey Back To Me

I pity those who have never experienced the reality of epic failure in life.
That season of temporary utter devastation...that breath-taking moment of loss...that mind-altering state of rejection...

That moment when brain and heart agree for once...the mistake is lived out in breathing color... The guilt you bear for not feeling guilty...The shame you wear to cover the nakedness of honest moments of desperation...

All lead to the life-changing revelation that: I am human.
An authentic package of frailty and strength...weakness and confidence...flaws and purity...
All wrapped in one fragile, yet unbreakable package of humanity.

I am perfectly imperfect.
And today....for once....I find no shame in that.

This day is the first step of a journey of a million miles....

Monday, October 25, 2010


It happened. It really happened. I'm not shocked he made it, cuz he got his daddy's smarts and school was always a breeze for him. But my amazement came in how fast the time went right by me. It seems like last Saturday I was chewing my fingers, screaming at umpires, and eating tums for the ulcer at his Little League baseball games. How could he be 8 last Saturday and 18 today?

For the record, I am so very proud of my son. I am proud of the mountaintops and successful achievements...yes. But I am also very proud of the valleys and the failures he had the strength to get up, walk away from, and begin again. Wow! What a great accomplishment!

He makes me laugh. I love his jokes. I love when my phone lights up with his picture to let me know he's calling. I don't care why, I just love the sound of his voice.

This is my whom I am well pleased. :-)


On a quiet night when I can think more clearly, I plan to type so many of the stories and testimonies that have transpired over the last year. But I was looking at the blog today and it just seemed like cobwebs were forming. So I tried to think of a way that I could sum up all of the heartache, pain, loss, transition, physical illness, obstacles, roadblocks, attacks of enemy, stress, change, and all the other stuff life throws at us...and so I wrote: GOD IS STILL GOOD.

That says it all. Things change. People leave. Stuff breaks. Life hurts. BUT GOD...He stays, and He stays the same.

After all I have survived this past year, I can still testify: GOD IS STILL GOOD.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Journal - Thoughts

I'm reading the book: "The Power of Your Words".  Here is something very powerful and simple I am being motivated to do.  Everyday...and throughout the day, I am going to confess and affirm these facts:  

God is who He says He is.
I am who God says I am.
God can do what He says He can do.
I can do what God says I can do.
God has what He says He has.
I have what God says I have.

This sounds simple when you are reading the words.  But when you start affirming and confessing them aloud...something very powerful begins to rise up in your spirt.  Wow!  Try it.
I saw this beautiful arrangement in the foyer of the Pebble Beach resort.  I just thought it was beautiful because I have always loved sunflowers.

New Song: "My Prayer"

Guard my heart
From the arrows of this world
Guard my mind
From thoughts that aren't Thine own
Instill in me
A longing just to please You, Lord
These things I ask
These things I pray
In the solitude 
Of this quiet time with You

Written by:  Vonnie Ewing Lopez   
Music By the Bay Publishing Group (BMI 2009)

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

My Amazon Store

Hey Everybody!! Check out my Amazon Store.  It's really fun!!

I got books, music, and fashion that I love on there.